So I have all this work from my student days and it’s sometimes nice to look back and see how far I’ve come. It’s exciting to realize that my whole struggle has actually been a journey where I can see the milestones and the kinds of things that I used to be obsessed about in relation to the work I’m making now. Now what do I do with all this ‘debris’ which used to be so close to my heart but now makes me squirm in shame with the thought: “What the #$*% was I thinking???”
How to write something worthwhile …
If you’ve suffered from writer’s block, you’ll find this particularly amusing.
Graduation show …
Today is the day of my Graduation Show (Eindexamen to the Dutch). I’m afraid, nervous and really worried, but I can’t say I’m suprised. I get shaky just waking up in the morning …
I don’t want to expect too much, naturally. But I do want something good to happen. There are so many graduates all over the world, every year who either fizzle out into nothing or spend the rest of their lives barely making a living. Most recent art school graduates I know agree that an art degree has been almost useless to them. So have I reached the same point? Am I also to be one of the unfavorable lot entering the professional world? It seems like the chances of success are next to none. All I keep thinking is - ‘it makes me so happy, how could it possibly be that bad?’. Maybe I’m extremely naive, but I’m really hoping that feeling of absolutely loving what I do and dying to perfect it is worth something.
